How do you move through the most challenging times in your life? “There are emotionally devastating moments that I’ll never forget,” I said to my therapist. “Oh, I don’t doubt that.” These days, I’m back to walking. The weather is getting nicer, and I appreciate it, but right now, it’s in the sweet spot. Today, […]
Read more "Processing"It was too cold for my morning coffee walk, so I opted for a drive. For some time, I was in the belief that I would never return to my hometown. Good memories resided there, but a part of me assumed that the weight of the bad memories, that they would tip the balance of […]
Read more "You Can’t Help Me Now"I’m in it for the long haul. And I remember the last six months before I turned 30. I spent almost every day in a state of pure anxiety, somewhere between leaving my childhood and becoming an adult, not sure how to handle this impending new decade that was fast approaching. Truth be told, while […]
Read more "34 (Part I)"And just like that, it’s all over. Today marked the one month anniversary since I started doing something different. On January 10th, a cold Friday, I started group therapy, and today was the final day. I’m a mix of emotions about it. There were fantastic people that I met, and wonderful facilitators who ran the […]
Read more "Groups"I sat down and got to work. Before my first session with my current therapist, I had to fill out some paperwork. I drove over to the building, made my way down the carpeted stairs to her office, and then it was time to fill out an intake form. I’m sure I’ve filled out this […]
Read more "Behind"Letting go isn’t always easy. A few years back, I interned in Costa Rica for the summer. I woke up that first morning in a bed that was not my own, in a hostel that was unfamiliar, and got ready for work. It felt like I had started a brand new life, and in a […]
Read more "Home Movies"You can’t always jump right in. I walked over to my therapist’s house after a heavy rain had fallen. The dark clouds loomed large in the sky, as if they might change their mind, and the humidity was with me every step I took. It’s been a strange stretch of weather, one where you feel […]
Read more "Playing Catch"About to graduate high school, I should have been over the moon. I wanted to feel the excitement of the people I saw in movies, people who did stupid things and lived life with a reckless abandon that wasn’t feasible when the grades still mattered. I hadn’t been the coolest person in high school, and […]
Read more "Happiness (Part III)"Sometimes we need to be reminded. Despite the plethora of seating options that were now available, I sat down on a familiar forest green couch across from my therapist. It had been some time since our last session, and after receiving a strongly worded email that questioned my commitment, I wasn’t sure if I still […]
Read more "The Return"Disclaimer: I once wrote a paper in my international trade class about the dangers of countries “dumping” large quantities of a product into another country’s market, which distorts that country’s market and undercuts prices. This post isn’t about that. You’re welcome. When I was a primary care giver, one of the most profound feelings or […]
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