Taking on Water

The title might be a bit dramatic, but stay with me. In the dream, I think I was driving a minivan, similar to the one I used to drive for work. It was pouring outside, harder than anything I’d seen before, but I wasn’t concerned. For some reason, my dreams have been more vivid than […]

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The Love You Have

May this post serve as a reminder. I just finished a good workout, but it wasn’t easy. A large part of me didn’t want to do it, and so I battled and bargained with myself. I drank coffee. One cup became two became three. I told myself I would put it off until after lunch, […]

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The One

Ask questions. Ask them early and often. You may sound stupid in the process, but I’d rather know the answer to something than stay silent and think about what could have been. Maybe I should already know the information I’m inquiring about, but I’m going to ask anyways. I ask because I want to make […]

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For Fun

Sometimes I just cannot psyche myself up. I’m a self-motivated person. I like to say that I’m on fire, or that I’ve caught fire, or that I’m catching fire, but the reality is a little tamer than that. I’m at very least I’m energetic, even when it comes to more mundane tasks, and I try […]

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On a Dime

And suddenly you’ll change. September is always a time when a lot of people move, and that was the talk of the office for a time. People were scoping out new living situations, scheduling movers, and making the last minute decisions. You always feel like you’re hanging on by the skin of your teeth, like […]

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Groups

And just like that, it’s all over. Today marked the one month anniversary since I started doing something different. On January 10th, a cold Friday, I started group therapy, and today was the final day. I’m a mix of emotions about it. There were fantastic people that I met, and wonderful facilitators who ran the […]

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Ideal Life

The picture used to be blank. The topic was on my mind before I even got home. Maybe I was mulling it over in the super market, but when I walked through the door, I was ready to sit down and write it out, ready to get down my thoughts, to pour some time and […]

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Excuses

“It’s just a weird time in my life,” -me. I know, I know. It’s tacky to quote yourself. I avoid it for a number of reasons, mostly because I already know what I know, and so when I learn something new, it comes from an external source. Usually my quotes come from others, from one […]

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A Year of Peace

The search for peace is an important one. Meditation is rarely a topic on this blog, and for good reason. You either get it or you don’t, and the latter isn’t easily converted. I understand. For years, I didn’t think that meditation could help in any tangible way, or maybe I never really considered it. […]

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32 and going Strong(est)

4 years ago, I took a photo. In this photo, I’m wearing a black tank top with bright green lettering. I’m flexing my bicep, and I’m also smiling like I’m positively insane. I look like a tool. Those who saw it likely questioned my sanity. I knew what the reactions would be, but I took […]

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