Ideal Life

The picture used to be blank. The topic was on my mind before I even got home. Maybe I was mulling it over in the super market, but when I walked through the door, I was ready to sit down and write it out, ready to get down my thoughts, to pour some time and […]

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Excuses

“It’s just a weird time in my life,” -me. I know, I know. It’s tacky to quote yourself. I avoid it for a number of reasons, mostly because I already know what I know, and so when I learn something new, it comes from an external source. Usually my quotes come from others, from one […]

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Questions and Answers

“Do you want to play trivia tonight?” The question was simple enough. I was fresh off my sojourn to Costa Rica, and I was ready to get back in the swing of things. I’d had no choice but to spend my summer in Central America, but it turned out to be one of the best […]

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Behind

I sat down and got to work. Before my first session with my current therapist, I had to fill out some paperwork. I drove over to the building, made my way down the carpeted stairs to her office, and then it was time to fill out an intake form. I’m sure I’ve filled out this […]

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100

This week, I’m turning 100. Kidding, but seriously, I can’t believe I’m writing this particular post. I’ve now posted 100 times on abredder91.wordpress.com, and it’s kind of amazing. The first few entries were from my time spent in Sri Lanka and New York, but after that, it’s all been about the conversations we need to […]

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Happiness (Part IV)

Don’t worry, we’re almost there. Part of being happy is realizing that even during the worst period of your life, that there were good moments too. It’s too easy to paint my twenties with a broad brush, and to say that they sucked. It’s simply not true, and I don’t think it’s ever wise to […]

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Doing versus Thinking

This wasn’t supposed to be the post for the week. I spent the first part of this week in a haze. I couldn’t pinpoint the source of this haze, and that in turn led to frustration. You start to analyze everything, and that’s when analysis by paralysis happens. You think about so many different things […]

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President’s Day Weekend

President’s Day Weekend. Saturday, February 17th. Dead of winter, Massachusetts. Almost immediately, I regretted turning in at 1:00am the previous night. A quick glance at my phone said it was 7:02am. Certainly not my best sleeping performance, but some strong coffee would have to suffice to make this day tolerable. So what? So what if […]

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Own It

When my Dad got remarried for a second time, he and his new wife combined two families. Both had two kids, and each of our respective families literally doubled in size. The house I lived in became so much smaller, and chaos was the order of the day most days. One of the first things […]

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